J.Y.memoire

hey, it's holiday!!! woohoo!

i waited this day for centuries, finally can get rid of tiring assignments

When a dreamer stop hoping for a better future...
When a dreamer stop fighting for her dream...
When a dreamer's everything seems to freeze at this moment... (Zoey Ng)

one month ago, i felt exactly the same way she felt

i started to doubt my ability

i feel afraid to start doing any of my assignment

i feel like my every effort didn't get any pay off

i feel so tiring

i feel like giving up, feel like my world is going to the end

i can't see how my future will be, what can i do...

somehow, my new tutor, Ruslan made me stop thinking about this

thanks god for sent him to my group

he is such a nice and responsible tutor

he is strict and harsh yet friendly and humor

we love him although he push us very hard and even scold us for not putting our whole effort on the assignment

because we all know what he did is all for our own good

and yeah, he is a very talented guy

he can paint a sea scene with ship and helicopter within FIVE MINUTES, simple yet awesome painting

so, when this talented tutor told me that i am wasting my talent, he didn't see me putting my whole effort on it and he even asked me to don't disappointed him

i really feel touch at that moment

this is the first time in university, i feel someone really care about his or her students

yea, so i decided to work very very hard for this assignment to make my promise come true

i didn't sleep well for the whole week to complete my assignment

indeed, i only sleep about 1 or 2 hours these few days

i am challenging my own limit and i did something i think i can't do before this

i painted on acrylic glass (which is perpex), i painted acrylic paint on canvas and i even did wood carving

when i took my 9 panels (which is my assignment) to show him in the studio, and he was so excited and keep saying: "wow, this is awesome! you managed to do this!!"

i feel i sacrifice my sleeping time is worth

but yea, like what he said, i still need to improve my drawing skill

OMG! i am so excited, finally holiday.

so stop thinking about grades and previous assignment

i should start thinking what can make my holiday more cheerful and meaningful

p/s: i was burning my money when i was doing my assignment, can money drop from sky??? i wonder...