J.Y.memoire

just came back from BTN
OMG! my bahasa malaysia is sucks
cant communicate well with others in BM = =
anyway, i enjoyed the 5 days 4 night camp
learnt a lot of perlembagaan malaysia
learnt a lot of malaysia history
honestly, i cant say the camp didn't affect me at all
because it really raised my patriotism
woke me up from become an irresponsible malaysia citizen
nudge me to alert about malaysia history, law and importance of unity of races
maybe this is so called "brain wash"
but i think this is a good change for me
unless i understood the reason of "unfair" mentioned by non-malay
and understood the consequences of non-cooperation among races

the person who most impressed me not the facilitators
but a junior from france programme
he is neither malay nor non-malay
in fact, he is nothing and not pure malaysian
because both of his parents are not malaysia citizen
that's why he got everything in very hard way
such as
if he got the chances to enter matrikulasi
then his siblings would not have the chances
it is such a pity story for me
and it made me think about
why we cant appreciate what we got
and why we only see those things that we didn't have?
it cannot be denied that
malaysia government had provided everything for us
education, health care, transportation, jobs...
what else we want to demand for?
okay, u might say that i have been "brain wash"
but just think about if every race want to dominate the country
and lead to outbreak of war
who will be the victim?
is every citizen!
however, we, as the malaysia citizen, have every right to get a better job and high salary to maintain high living standard

如果你埋怨着马来西亚的不公
请你看看一些暴乱的国家
很多很多人
他们连埋怨的机会都没有
连上学的机会都没有
连三餐温饱的机会也没有
我们有着很多很多的机会
但我们都不懂珍惜
也把他们统统忽略掉
为什么我们总是要眺望远处的天边
而忘了眼前的真实的一切？

为什么我们只想着种族的不同
而不是怎么团结种族是我们生活的地方更美好？
谁和什么种族在统治真的那么重要么？
皮肤什么颜色和说的语言是什么真的有那么重要么？
世界上就是有很多很多的不公平
如果我们要把每一个不公平都计较下来
生活不就很疲累？
公民权和特优权都只是一种交易
满足从前为这个国家奋斗的各种族的需要
这就是现实和历史
不管我们满意还是不满意

我没有说马来西亚很好
但
不管我们喜欢还是不喜欢
高兴还是不高兴
这就是我们的国土
我们的家
我们成长的地方
我们的根
至少我还可以很平安的在打部落格
当某些国家的孩子
还在挨饿
还在心惊胆跳着暴乱
还在担心明天的学费
幸福不是必然的
在我们追求着我们梦想的当儿
是不是该珍惜我们拥有的一切
这一切
可能就是世界某一个角落的一些人
渴望了一辈子
却还是得不到的东西

well, throw away those patriotisme feelings
i know is quite weird to post it in my blog
let's talk about other things happened in the camp

in the first night in the camp
julius said he will move to kuching
and quit ausmat, intec
what a surprise and sad news?!!
i still doubt is it a joke?
because it is not worth to do that
since we leave half year to go only
but he was damn serious when we talked about this
hmm, honestly, i do hope it is just a prank
although i will look like a fool since i kept asking him was that just a joke
(his answer still the same: whether you believe or not, it is a truth...)
well, we will know that on 21/6...