J.Y.memoire

if u ask me am i happy,
i would say...

i had screwed up my ielts test today
praying i still managed to get band 6.5
i am getting lazy although final exam is around corner
i am fond of ice cream, especially MC D ice cream
i say good morning to the cats in my hostel
(fuan will definitely say i am crazy. who knows?)
i start blogging in english
hmm, my mandarin skill is deteriorating but i cant see any apparent improvement in my english language skill as well
emotional mood creep over me with no reason
which make me feel crying after i made loud laughter
i cannot express myself well, no matter i am using mandarin, english or cantonese
i discover myself have the talent to be hairdresser
i still suffering with homesick
miss my mom and my little brother
most of the time, i feel like calling someone
but i dunno who should i call and how should i begin the conversation
the moment i stepped out from ielts exam hall, only i realised that i cant lean on anyone's shoulder
which i used to do when i am lost in last time
theng, i miss those days that i can rely on you
but i know i need to grow up and be independant

am i happy? it depends...

if we did not talk often, does it mean our friendship is fading away?
if we did not share secret anymore, does it mean i am nobody in your present life?
if we did not relate to each other life anymore, does it mean u will forget me?
i miss those days we can chat from day to night
i miss those days you told me the girl you like
i miss those days i seek you when i was upset
i miss those days we hung out together when you came back kampar
i miss those days we went to west lake and saw people fishing there
and u will tell me fishing is cruel
i miss those days u shared your favorite brand with me
although i don't support materialistic
i miss you
and once, i thought our friendship will never fade away
but i think things always happen against our will